Last time you rejected me, I made a list of reasons I would never want to date you, in case you came back days or weeks down the line and said you'd changed your mind. I wanted to remember exactly why I was better off without you.
After forgiving you and becoming friends, you've done it again--but this time it's way worse. Since you won't talk to me, I've decided the only way I'm ever going to get everything out of my system is to make another list like the one I made last time. Anytime I get the urge to contact you, or if you contact me and want to be in my life again, I am going to look at this list to remind myself that you're a piece of shit that I don't want or need in my life. Here goes.
Reasons I do not want you:
- You never wanted to do anything with me except drink at The Dive* and then drunkenly crawl into my bed afterwards. Every time you did something except going to the bar, I never got invited. You've never asked me to see a movie with you or even taken me to dinner. Remember Midtown? Or that fancy South American place? I sat at home wondering why you invited everyone except me while you were out classing it up with your shitty friends. But whenever you wanted to slum it at the nasty dive bar full of sad, creepy old men, I was the first one you thought of. Thanks. As much fun as I had drinking with you, I'd rather wait for someone who thinks I'm special enough to take out to a nice dinner once in awhile.
- You never listened to a word I said. You acted like everything that came out of my mouth was the stupidest thing you'd ever heard...and that was when you actually shut up long enough to let me get a sentence out. I lost count of how many times I got interrupted because you had something oh-so-much more important to say. And it was usually something that just made you look like an ass.
- Here's the biggest reason: when you started to have feelings, instead of coming to me and telling me how you felt, you pussied out and just cut me out of your life like it was nothing. Then you put me through the awful humiliation of having to beg you to give me the reason. You became one of my best friends; I trusted you to talk to me and be honest with me. And now you've abandoned me and you don't even care. I am truly sorry if I hurt you, but you didn't have to let it get to this point. While I was moping around on the couch being sad and wondering why you wouldn't talk to me, you were out partying it up all weekend with my roommate. You just don't give a shit at all, despite all the bullshit you fed me while we were friends.
So that's it. I doubt I'll ever really hear from you again, but if I do, I can promise that one look at this list will remind me of what a dipshit you are and any lingering feelings or soft spot I might have for you will disappear. So you might as well just not bother. Have a nice life.
Sincerely,
-Annie G.
*Names of people and places have been changed to protect my anonymity.
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